The Last

Oct 27 2.56 a.m.

A day i insomnia again...doing nothing...Just had dinner McDonald ...but now start feel starving again..
Damn...going looking somethings to fill my tummy...Maggie mee my 1st choice...also is a best and instant ways...i'm really hungry right now...lazy going down to buy something's to eat...gosh ...how lazy i'm....seriously cannot stand myself sia...

Listening music while waiting the water boiling for my supper...hmm...not supper is breakfast ...anyways...i was feel tired and exhausted for looking room...wondering my budget not enough ...this month going finish and i cannot caught up every subject now...worried sia...only one month how to do...even assignment haven't start yet...faint 

Next month November please kind to me...let everything's can done smooth and soon.. God bless...
Really wanna study hard already...no point to waste any time...our time had limit...just left few month..
Maybe cannot see each other anymore...i was unhappy and don't know what to do...
Even thought just a while..i'm satisfied...every moment see your smiling face ...i'm trying to keep it all inside my great memories ...this moment just have you and me...  i like to listening your talking , i like you giving me advise, i like you giving me happy and so many things...

My heart is start to concern you everything's seriously...not for control you...just concern you at the side...I choose going without telling you...just hope you can enjoy with your friends...i not sad i not angry...because you have your right...i had no right to said...just knowing you wanna follow them...then better going back...i was shocked and feel happy when realize you're chasing me back...sorry didn't heard you calling me.

Everything's from me to you...just very simple..that's is you happy and happiness...then enough already...No matter how i just wanna bring you happy...not trying to make you down...Even though one day ,you have to go back beside your bf...i also will truly bless yours... at least have someone is understand you better than me and have common language with you ...let you easier to express yourself ...

I'm not a good person, may not be a good enough to you.

When i start to have feeling with you...i was planning our future already.

Yesterday saw your Fb have post a link  " The Last "
That's was really good video.
And now i also want to told you
BEFORE you how many girl i Love?
Answer is 5 .
Every relationship i'm not the one to said break up...
Maybe i'm not good enough to be their bf
But at last i have trying to save our relationship
ended up the result still the same
that's no way..

I really don't know what wrongs to me
Might is a birthday curse to make me a fool.

Next time if you wanna know my past i will told you...
If you were to check my hand phone one day, you will realize that yours will be the one and only name that appears in my inbox, sent messages and dialed numbers folder. For anything associated with you, is just too precious to be deleted away.

IMY

IMY = I Miss You


Since you left my sight...i start to thinking about you...
Ytd went back hometown...i never received any news from you 
Even single message also didn't reply me

Really don't know 
do i have chances with you?
do i have occupy your heart?
do you accept me?

sometimes i hopes answer can be more directly
I don't want anythings bring to me from you
I'm not greedy
Just only want your hearts
that's was glad things for me

Next month going moving house
hopefully everything's going smooth
next month new environment ,new mood, new started..

Oct 6 2012

Oct 6 2012 

A day i awake from scary dream relating with you...I hate this...don't try appear in my dream anymore... must not become reality...i was so depression and tears are drop off few drops...i really cannot control it...1st in time just know wanna call you...heard your voice...let me feel better...but you're rushing to hang off my call...will give me a call later...actually returning book just an excuse...just wanna date you come out having a simply lunch and see you then enough already...because next week you will went back hometown solving something's...probably per week at there...recently you keep busying things...maybe you don't have so much time to replying my every single message ...when you bothering something's i'm trying don't disturb...i know you're the one stubborn and independent on certain things don't willing people to help you or share with people...even though have a big problem on head...you just wanna solving alone ...knowing your personality  i have no choice...just hope you're can solving smoothly and sharing with me your things...sunshine...you can do it...cheer everyday...i will stay beside you quietly supporting and encourage you...just don't let problems surround you anymore..

Now i have no right and no qualifications..

I knew I had been touched 
by love...
the first time I saw you
and I felt your warmth
and heard your laughter.

I knew I had been touched
by love...
when I was hurting from
something that happened,
and you came alone
and made the hurt go away.

I knew I had been touched
by love...
when I quit making plans
with my friends
and started dreaming dreams
with you.

I knew I had been touched
by love...
when I stopped thinking in
terms of "me"
and started thinking in
terms of "we".

I knew I had been touched
by love...
when suddenly I couldn't make
decisions by myself anymore,
and I had this strong desire
to share everything with you.

I knew I had been touched
by love...
the first time we spent
alone together
and I knew I wanted to stay
with you forever...
because I had never felt
this touched by love.