Christmas

Raining day 
Days's were covered by a grey cloud with drizzle 
Hovering the roads we had pass through before
Suddenly let me recall previous moment's 
Any moment together with you
Somehow mouth uncontrollable and smile
Did everything's with a good mood

Finally satisfaction my results
Everything's have done on time
Maybe somewhere not too perfect
At least this have different with before
These day's effort 
Just think can been help something's
After she knew
Don't getting upset  
I only simply for helping
Don't have other purpose

Listening the Christmas song at anywhere
This signs are telling me
Christmas is coming soon
But to me
That't time i  might still stay at inside
May not celebrated with you
Before she travel i have a plans
Wait her coming back
She will know what happening
Hopes she will like
What i had done for her

I likes to touch your face when you fall asleep *

Will you marry me?

Sometime's human being very annoying
The most abominable emotional is jealous
That such a big critical at every single thing's
If yourself also hope can be like that
Seriously this ill we have no ways to cured 

I'm the one who've jealous easier with no reason
Weird human
Coincidence meet my old school friends at outsides
He was bring his daughter and wife going shopping
What a good and happiness scene appear in front of me
We have a chat awhile and he introduce his family to me
OMG

Shocked 
Jealous besides friends is getting married at my ages
Some more have a daughter already 
KIll Me PLZ!!! 


Since we holding each other hands and step into church that's moment
I believe Most of the guys are prepared to role a good husband in future
Most of them will be more mature and motivate 
Everything's placed family at 1st
Give her wife have a better living
Sacrifice them entertainment time 
Stay at home accompany his family

After married he will realize and understand what is important to him
What his seeking for?

Just now at his status saw this:

"Before, my pursuit of perfection ... most seek higher incomes and living ...

Greedy, what each wanted. But the more I pursue, life is even more difficult, anything and did not have enough ... after living more and more down and out, almost collapsed.

My wife ... in the most difficult of my life with me, by my side no matter what happens. At this time I was aware of ... I have nothing, why she is still with me? Reason is because she loves me ...

I did not know, in fact, too ordinary, love becomes more shiny. I give up everything to pursue ... want ordinary work, raise a family, eat, sleep. I really better off than before the mind richer, more practical.

In order to live up to their own, not the pursuit of success, but to grasp happiness.
So advise all people who love each other, a closer look at each other, understand each other's intention for you to pay and change, happy go."


What a touched story
Since i know the guy is not consider too much
Just seeking a high standard  life and earn money
 But now he was change his mind
Change his lifestyle
Everything's be simply and satisfy 
My heart was be indecisive
His story are slight have a impulse me
Have a idea to get married right now
LMAO

I know this won't happen in life
Just imagine if if if if if...
IF MY WISH COME TRUE
I will bring her take a wedding album at here too
I think you wearing the gown called "Ao Dai" is so beautiful look like the girl
Happiness and enjoying
But all of the thing's just can imagine and hopes...

What a good view to take our memories here*

Hold your hand tightly just don't want let you go*

I will love you  forever and give you a hug when you need me*

Stand at your position

Hey silly girl, this moment are you sleep already?
Tonight I think you had slept very sweet
No need like everyday worry couldn't sleep 
And keep rolling on the bed

Hmm...today feels free
Start help to cleaning the house
Decoration the house
Let it look more cleanness and more fresh
But now still processing
Haven't done yet
Hopefully she come back don't feel surprised
Haha

lying on the my beds 
Stand at you position
Start to think
To keep asking myself and think about your situation 
Secrets?
Everyone's behind assuredly have a big secret cannot told other people
Included is me
If someone didn't tell me the truth
Can i compliant or blaming it?
Of course can't !!!

You didn't sharing secrets with peoples
Why people need to told you 
However,those behind the story 
Peoples have a reason 
Select to keep it themself

Perhaps is protects her family
Don't want to let them worried too much
And try her best to give a good repay to them
Enjoy the rest entire life
After all just thinking give them enjoy
Since parent have paid effort to feed us
We had grow up
And know how to take care ourself
It is time to reduce their hard and pay back 
Following our age keep rise year by year
We will start to worried about it
Career , Mate , Money
Is you're girl
And you're in a complicated situation and don't know what to do
Important is looking a capable & can help you alot of spouse
And let him take care of you and your family
Stay together happiness

Is me too obtuse 
Didn't realize the hint you had tell me before
Brain too simply 
Cannot respond on time
Sigh
Stupid me!!!

The 1st handmade flowers have done by me

Just hope her like it =)

without you

Another night blogging with squint mini eyes -.-

Exhausted body and aching anywhere

Gosh

Yesterday sleep at 5 and wake up at 7 morning

Crazy man

Early wake up for someone is okay

Thought can sending her going airport

But end up

I was give her refused

She said she's not a children will take care herself

Suddenly i speechless with it

Yesterday asking me going together if i feel free

But next days change mind said don't want

I Knowing you well

That's why just follow what you want

And select don't send her

After that's went to school and taking bus 

For some activity event

Lucky today weather not bad

Still is a good days been East Coast to cycling

Game is group of people cycling together and follow the instrution to play together

Even leg is going break and some more heavy rain during activities

That's is really fun and funny

As expected we won a 1st runner

Because the team have me  (Thick faces)

And as expected know what is prize of 1st runner

(Worth $80 NTUC Voucher )

As a Mis student. 

Confirm will know what is that Prizes.

When reached home i wish can sleep right now

But i was afraid the pest to bite me

These days really unlucky keep give the pest bite 

the whole of body so itchy and getting red already

Sigh

This timing stay alone at this house

feel not accustomed to

Someone is going overseas

Today no places for me rest 

And don't have someone to accompany chatting

Cannot look at your slept soundly looks

That's was so adorable

Talk with you and keep looking at you 

Petting your hair and face

Use my hand to describe look of you

For put you in my mind

Never forget

Yesterday night also can feel have something's petting my head also

Don't know what happening 

Maybe is a dream ?

Tonight will be a lonely night

 bedside is less her

Just only can imagine 

OMG

Really cannot tahan anymore

Really want to fall asleep already

Blogging until here 1st

Morrow feel free and update this post

Since i was tired just type anything's rubbish

 

Reality

From suspecting to reality

Feel myself is fool

Early morning moody is outbreak 

Sorry

Not don't want to tell the truth

Because i'm the one

Not usual to sharing with people my personal thing's

Even though is my best friends 

I like typing out my feeling in somewhere

Or written at notes inside 

Remind me all the past happening 

Sometimes alone keep it

Better than don't let beside my friends get troubles

I think that not necessary to me

I'm know myself 

Know how to control as well

When realize i'm moody

I will move out everything's happy moment

And borrow it to forget my moody

It may a stupid ways

But this is useful for me

Something's already confirm  

Not a good time to said 

I don't asking too much

I have nothing 

No qualify to have now

Just with a little hope

Fool

I Do

Until the last day saw you 
The rest after 2 year and talk
Look forward and preparing my thing's

Moon

Well, listening soft music and thinking today what should i write
Actually today didn't have any blogging mood
But somehow have a thing's let me feeling good
That's is chit-chat with a silly all the days
Satisfactions and cheer her up

Coming these days she will going to looking her dreams
But how about my dream?
Do you have ever ask me?
Just Only using 2 words
My dream was mix with simply and happiness
Hmm...how to Said?
Such like Cloud and Rainbow
If Cloud does't have Rainbow exists it
That's like be short something's
But they still have their special and mystery feel
Let us surprise and unexpected
Or Other saying
At the darkness Sky
Just only have a brightly moon hanging alone on sky
Doesn't have any star to accompany with it
The View is not much beautiful 
And Change another ways to think about it
The moon may not have star accompany it
Atleast still have a uncounted pair of eyes looking with it
Accompany Moon until all the night
You may are the one of pair of eyes too
Even thought Cannot be Great beautiful views
But have someones willing to accompany
That's was a great days

Not Trying to forcing people
Just let them choosing 
What they want
No matter how long
Be a special and unique
Inside your heart

Restless

Restless day
Totally don't know what am i doing in today
Sigh
Bothering what?
Anxiety what?
No idea

Sometimes really hate myself
Why cannot be more active on certain thing's
Why so useless
Just now going outside walk a round 
Take a deep breath 
But seem like nothings 
My heart like less something's
Somethings is stuck on it

Tired for thinking
Tired for doing anything's
Tired for contact anyone
I just need to calm down my feel
Don't let this getting worst

That's all excuses
Honestly i just need someone can stand beside me
And talk to me
Understand me

I don't like be a emotional people
Just no choice and no time
All the thing's came to me at once
Let me feel so burden
So stress 
These day happening let my smile 
Far away from me

Off the Fb 
Give me some time to recover
I'm not unhappy to you
Anythings just only me willing to do for you
Even you chase me away
Not your wrongs

I just want to face to face
Chit-chat with you more
Spent the time with you
Like a Before

28days

This is coincidence or manage by God
For avoid appear in your sight 
I was choose another side we're not used to walk back
But surprising both of us are meet up at same way and same timing
That's time both of us are not sure izzit have recognize wrong people onot 
The end we are sure don't have recognize wrongly
When we meet up each other
That's atmosphere is so funny and look surprise



28 days to go army...really don't have other way to defer anymore
I must face the fact...and awakes...cannot living under dream anymore
That's was nothing useful for me seriously
Need to pull out from here right now
2 years just hope can finish quickly 
And returning live with a normal life

At this period may have alot changing
time is not waiting anyone
We have to treasure anyone besides us
No matter the world is changing so fast
We still can remember the happiness moment we had
Won't forget in this life

I was glad to have this moment
I need thank you do alot of things for me
End up i just know 
That's have problem on me
By the way
This will keep on my hearts forever and ever
Won't forget
Until i die

Nov 10

Before lying on my bed
I couldn't sleep yet
Everyone have their problem or bothering at this moment
I think so
Not only me
went downstairs sat on the seat and let myself calm down
Since i moving here 
i was start to get used here

These days, received a letter from army
13th DEC 2012
When i saw it
I was stunned an shocked
How come will be like this
I really cannot accept it
To me is a big hits 
I haven't done my course and i have a plan
This is over my expected
Seriously i need to defer it
Besides my hearts was not prepared yet
Thought i still have few months to get in

Today i had calling them
Now just take a patient to waiting a good news
Hopefully this don't ruin my plans
Everything's will be under my plan please

One more months to go
30 days to go
I will finished my course
Have to keep it up to revision right now
Otherwise no time to do

After 30 days
How about us?
Would we can continue keep in touch
Or
Split to two destination ?

Faith or fate
I don't know
I just know i'm care about you
I miss you... 

November 7th

Is time to update recent again...busying on assignment and moving house...Absolutely i was really tired on that...my face become worst than worst by day...face gonna be rotten...i don't want be that!!!
Seriously, i not dare seeing ppl eyes when chatting with friends...i was lose my confident anyway...
Because i was embarrassing and scare ppl look at my worst face...i don't know what to do...just try to control...

I was fear i become the one from few year ago... Everytime i have no mood and cannot concentrate at any area, everytime look at that will spoil my good day but  now atleast quickly done the assignment and hope can recover soon...don't expect too much...
Moving to new environment is quiet good...but in dept my heart still have some feel slight less something's
don't know how to explain 
just can feel

I get the answer from :

Saya cinta awak, saya sanggup tunggu awak lama-lama ...



To her ♥: 

Nobody is best, but you have to become the best in your own
keep practice your own...don't compare or challenge with other
the big challenging is yourself
fighting and learn
even though is wrongs, atleast u can learnt from wrongs
That's gain and no lose
Try to across your own difficult barrier
And make it better
You're the smart 
Don't feel you not enough good
If keep feel like that then you suppose to hardworking
Then you also can be someone you was envy their capable
Try yourself 
You have potential to be
Cheer gal 
You can make it
I believe